Trust God. Clean house. Help others.

Some may recognize these words.  I got them in a newsletter.  They just seemed so fitting for the place I am in right now.

As I move toward my 40th birthday, I have had some realizations that I hope are leading me toward better days.  The last 3 years have been filled with depression, financial grief and loss.

Along the way I stopped taking care of my house and volunteering in the community.   I have been TRYING to focus more on my Spiritual development but have not really trusted that things will improve.

Friday I am going to a Full Moon ceremony to release some of my problems to the universe and trust G-d that things will improve.


I started yesterday cleaning my yard and house.  I am going to work on part of it everyday this week, so it might be less smelly by week's end.

I am not sure yet, how I want to back to the world around me.  I can only go so far without gas.  I may have to settle for doing something in my internet community for a few more months. 

Trust God. Clean house. Help others.

Something to work on

Today, my reading has brought me to 2 things I really need to work on.  They are inspired by the following quotes and come at a particularly difficult moment in my life.

I focus on what's really important in life.
Quality rather than appearance...ethics rather than rules...integrity rather than domination ...knowledge rather than achievement...serenity rather than acquisitions. - Wayne Dyer

“The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.”  - Mitch Albom (born 1958); Author, screenwriter, musician

Life could be a lot better, but I have to decide to make it that way.

No Man is an Island

A lot of my reading this week has been about connecting with people, as I mentioned in my previous post.  I also agree that it is essential for human beings to interact with other human beings. 

However, the problem becomes how and where to interact with other human beings when the economy is so bad.  Unless your family and friends live next door, it takes gas and thus money to spent time with people.  For many this isn't a luxury one can afford.

I am not sure what the solution is.  I struggle with it every evening and weekend that I am free.  In fact I was going to stretch my budget to attend an activity, but now my car is on the fritz. 

Here are some thoughts I read this morning and am considering in regards to my dilemma:

I work on my problems, and then I release them.



Anything that bothers you is only a problem within. Only you can experience it, and only you can correct it.  -Wayne Dyer

Written at the dwelling of a recluse


Even though you have a brushwood door,
It hasn't been shut for a long time;
A few clouds, a few trees
Have been your only companions.
Still I suspect if you stay longer,
People will learn of this spot
We'll see you moving
Higher on the mountain.

- Chia Tao (779-843)